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Feeling Feelings

I can’t even remember where I found this, but it’s been sitting in my dropbox for a while now. I pull it out often when I’m writing. It helps to work through what a character might be feeling at any given point in time.



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Oct ’13 Update

So I’m not really doing the blog thing now. Not here, anyway. There’s this fannish evolution or whatever that’s coincided with my shift in fandoms. Once upon a time everything happened on twitter, nowadays everything is on tumblr. So I finally sucked it up and started using it, after several months of tantrums because I think it’s clumsy and inefficient don’t like change.

So that’s where the fic updates go these days –> My tumblr. To be honest all I really post there is fic updates, occasional small and inconsequential rants, and other than that I reblog gif sets and porn. Cos tumblr is for porn *nods*

My twitter is still a great place to chat, though it’s a lot quieter these days than it used to be.

So, NaNoWriMo is just around the corner. Two weeks to go. I had big plans to rewrite (I know that’s not the done thing, but meh) my first NaNo novel, Vital Depth, which I wrote in ’09, but to do that I had to sit down and snowflake the everloving crap out of it. And I haven’t done that.  Also, I’ve come to the realisation that anything I write during November (or for Camp NaNo – did that in July this year) is invariably a giant mess due to the word vomit that is necessary just to make the daily wordcount and needs so much rewriting that it freaks me the crap out and I never look at it again (hence the planned rewrite of my ’09 effort – 4 years later).

So, Vital Depth, because it means so much to me, will be getting a much more relaxed effort, hopefully sometime early next year.

And because I’m finding fic so easy to write at the moment, and have plot bunnies coming out my ears (or spilling out of my filofax), I’m just going to write a bunch of fic. I’ve never written fanfic during NaNo before–well, it’s never been the big planned project during Nano, though I have written shorts during November and counted them towards my goal–so this is a new thing for me. Hopefully, with the many short fics, my attention span will remain constant, and short fics are much less scary when it comes to rewriting and editing.

Also happening over the last few months of the year, is Yuletide, the rare fandom fic exchange. I’ve signed up for the first time this year, and plan to write my gift fic during November, and it can count toward my NaNo word count.

So, that’s what’s coming, as far as updates go, it lacks what’s been. Not much, really, except writing. I’ve been doing little else this year, so far I’ve clocked almost 140,000 words published in 2013 to date, and that’s not counting the 50+k I wrote during July for Camp NaNo. That’s almost exclusively Teen Wolf fic, with about 18k of Harry Potter and a couple of thousand words of Buffy.  And that can all be found on my AO3 account (it’s the only place I post nowadays).

Camp NaNo

I totally just signed up for Camp NaNoWrimo. Wasn’t going to, but I’m kinda flopping around with very little writing motivation lately, only keeping my feet wet writing shortfic, and doing it in a vacuum.

I need something fresh, so I took the leap. So, now I’m looking at a mad snowflaking dash for the next two weeks, and then early mornings for the month of July. I do have both kids at school now, and I’ve set myself a 30k target, so technically it should be more doable than ever before, but I’m still feeling wicked apprehensive.

At least I actually get to do NaNo during winter as it was intended—never had that before.

Love, Hate, Elation and Despair: I Finished a Story.

Well, that Teen Wolf story I started back after NaNo ended is now drafted. What I hoped would take me a week and come out about 10k actually took me a month and wound up over 30k. That’s fairly epic for me, and the editing of it is looming all scary and dark over my head.

Particularly for longer stuff, that’s par for the course for me. Whether I’ve outlined myself stupid or not (which I did this time), there’s always some retconning (my word to mean there’s stuff I have to go back and fix to fit the rest of the story) to be done, and way more than general SPaG, it scares the beejeebus out of me.

So I’m chuffed to have taken the story all the way to the end, but simply dreading the edit job. Of course, once it’s all done, I’ll look back and wonder WTF I was worried about.

Hoping to get it all done by February. Cross your fingers for me, shake your pompoms. Ta :)

Oh, it’s called Stronger in Numbers, or, And Will He Starve Without Me (cos I couldn’t decide, but we’ll just call it SiN for short, shall we?). It’ll go up here and on AO3 when it’s done.


So, I got bit by the Teen Wolf bug. About halfway through NaNo (and I still haven’t written that NaNo wrap up post) it hit me when I was taking some time out to watch Teen Wolf over again.

Sigh. Derek. Sigh. Stiles. They’re just OMFGPERFECT, aren’t they?


Anyway, it bit me so bad that my NaNo faltered and I had to ban myself from Teen Wolf till the end of the month. But post NaNo, I dived right in and now have a ridiculous collection of images in my dropbox for those late night pretty cravings.

Started a fic this morning. I’ve been planning it out for the last couple of days, and I’m ridiculously organised. Now I just have to write it. I’m hoping I can get it done inside this week, but time will tell. I have my trusty OCD word count spreadsheet, so hopefully that will drive me.

Anyway, with luck, it’ll get written and edited in a decent time frame. I’m posting my fic here on my blog as well as on AO3 nowadays, so it’ll go up here first.

NaNo ’12: Progress Report

One third of the way (time wise) through NaNoWriMo ’12 and I’ve almost hit the half way mark as far as word count goes. Might hit it tomorrow, might not. Hell, I could take a couple days off writing if I wanted to and still be on track.

Anyway. Had a bit of a rough start to NaNo this year. I got two days in and realised my POV was completely fucked and had to rewrite several scenes (while keeping the cut ones in my ‘shit-but-keep-for-word-count’ folder). Yesterday I realised my story was completely and utterly boring, and while my wordcount was rocketing along quite happily, I wasn’t actually saying anything.

If in doubt, add ninjas. So my fantasy world just got invaded. Not actually by ninjas in this case, but you get the picture. Now, my three boys have to somehow get out of the magically impenetrable castle I locked them in, AND THEN fight off the invading barbarian hordes.

And there’s gonna be some sex in there somewhere, too. Before fighting off the invading barbarian hordes. I have epic fuckloads to look forward to! I can’t wait!

Hubby expressed concern over my impending battle scenes. I think he’s under the impression I can’t write that sort of thing because I’m a girl. Pfft.

Oh, I procrastinated yesterday by watching several episodes of Teen Wolf and making cover art.

NaNoWriMo 2012

My fourth National Novel Writing Month is coming up fast. Until a couple weeks ago, I was pretty much resigned to the fact that it wasn’t going to happen this year–and that was a huge thing. Writing is a catharsis for me, I began my first NaNo only a month and a half after my mother died, and so in my mind, the post-mum era is also hugely tied up with my writing.

But for 6 months or so, I didn’t write a thing. Then I got dragged into signing up for Kink Bingo and at least attempted to write something.

That resulted in the infamous Harry/Draco butter!kink failure O.O You don’t even want to know, but it at least got me started. I won’t go into the other stuff I’ve begun and then abandoned, but finally I actually started, finished, edited and posted Painted Green, and while it was only 700 odd words and fairly meaningless, I finally fucking finished something! Epic reason for celebration after a 6 month complete block.

So I figured I could handle NaNo this year. God only knows if I’ll come out with something readable (I’ve done exactly nothing with my last two efforts), but I’ll be writing.

Still don’t know what I’m going to be writing for NaNo this year, because I know from previous experience that whatever I decide to do and tell the world I’m going to do, invariably changes at the last minute (several times, if I know me). I’ve already told venis-envy that I’m doing The Lucky Ones (an SSE AU that I started planning 2 years ago), but it’s looking like that isn’t going to happen yet again. Right now I’m writing what could be an epic Harry/Draco mpreg (gasp!) so I might just decide to continue that for NaNo (counting only the words I write during November of course).

There’s always the option to hit a random plot generator at 11.59pm on October the 31st :D

One thing I’m not doing is planning out the wazoo like I have done before. There is no big red book this year. I’m thinking about rereading all my previous NaNo posts though, see if I feel like doing any of that in the week and a bit I have left.

Find me on the NaNoWriMo site here.